I'm going to talk about food addiction. Skip this post all together if your sanity is moderation. Although if you seek to understand why people abstain from triggers, then maybe this post is for you. Do what works. Just don't tell a food addict - recovered or not- to eat a cookie or normalize all food. Thanks!
Parts of the Food Junkies book (Vera Tarman, MD, READ THIS BOOK!) really jumped off the page were :
1. Chapter 5- Are you a food addict? - from the book Overlap in diagnosis
- Many diagnoses overlap,
- That diagnosing Food Addition can be confusing, that a person can be a food addict and have an eating disorder
- That the book author Dr. Tarman, and other experts, believe that many people diagnosed with with binge eating disorder are actually food addicts (THIS!)
I pray that eating disorder counselors and specialists get updated training that is accurate and timely. If I had a dime for well meaning doctors and people telling me to moderate all things... well, I could retire right now!
I thank people like Dr. Tarman, Dr. Pamela Peeke and others that speak out and bring us the most current research.
2. In Chapter 5- Are you a food addict? "Make no mistake, food addicts, like other addicts, intuitively know that they are engaging in self-destructive behavior"
- system of denial becomes more complex and defensive as the addiction progresses
- bizarre rationalizations = stinking thinking
|Weight gain, moderating all foods|
My own experience: Oh, my gosh! I "used" every moderation scheme I could think of. My food addiction disease wanted to RULE my brain. I would attend a WW meeting (2007-2011) and then I would proceed to moderate all the foods that helped my disease fired up and my dopamine receptors full.
Livestrong.com. (2009-20011) SURE!!! I can count those calories. No problem!
Skinny Cow ice cream, cookies, candy. H*LL Yeah! I could count those points like a champ, but the result was ALWAYS a binge. Never failed. False Fixes. 100% didn't get me to a normal weight
Since the counselor told me that I would need to stop... well, I knew. But I continued to "use" the moderation message to "use" sugar and grains. You can see from the weight graph below just how much moderation didn't work for me!!! I can't blame WW, Livestrong or anything or anybody else. It's my own dang responsibility. Not my fault that I have the addict brain, but my responsibility to move onto other tools and methods in recovery.
I should have and could have stopped or changed after 2-4 months, but instead I waited years! Hey, better late than never!!!
Here's what is working for me:
1. Choosing medical professionals with updated skills and advice that matches with my goals.
2. Choosing to live in recovery by choosing a Paleo-ish food template that keeps my body AND mind well.
Here's what didn't work for me:
1. Not taking action quickly enough once I was given solid, sensible advice.
Ummmm I would have been better off taking action within 2-4 months rather than 2-4 years.
2. Irrational, self destructive behavior... okay... weird crap like we've all seen and heard before- yourself, WW meetings, other bloggers, etc. I forgive myself every day so I don't bang my head on the wall...... Sink or Swim!?
- "I would binge more if I didn't have a skinny cow ice-cream"
- "Normal people eat whatever they want"
- "Those ladies at WW in Lifetime, well, I'm just not trying hard enough"
- "My family would be upset if I didn't eat their traditional sugar/wheat bombs"
- "My friends and co-workers would be offended if I didn't eat their homemade food"
|2011 vs 2015- Guess which photo was moderation vs abstaining?|